I feel carried by the universe. I know this can sound a bit strange, but it is a kind of flow I feel since october/november 2025.
The moment the managing couple and I had a talk about how things were going, things changed in a few hours. In the morning I had a talk with her about my feeling that I sensed that I would leave within a year. She told me she had the same feeling. And we both sensed that it would be around april ’26.
I always am suprised how incredible intuitive she can be.
She said:”Be careful, because now you have set the wheels in motion, it can go very fast.” And it did Gandalf, it did. (unjust and free translation out of Lord of the Rings, deel 3 :-).
A few hours later I had a chat with him. We shared a lot of personal stuff. Which made me realise even more how sensitive he is. And…I very well know he will read this somehow, but nonetheless I am gonna say it…I love this man. (Her too by the way, before she thinks otherwise).
We talked about that I had to turn over a lot of things to a collegue. And to be honest, I was for long worried how and who could take over my work (I know it sounds a bit arrogant, but there are a lot of jobs there where I do not have the right character or skills for…e.g. helpdesk, sitting behind a computer for hours a.s.o.)
But I very soon discovered that this collegue was perfect fitted for this. And may be even better!
So I felt relieved and supported, that the work was in safe hands. The company would not have any problem if I left.
And my chalet, my cabin in the woods, I felt I would sell it. I could feel it then. Suddenly two close friends offered their help to do some odd jobs in my chalet. I did not look forward to these small jobs…and that is an understatment. But with their help, it was fun and easy.
I felt supported.
I could stay in the place of a good friend, which made our friendship stronger. Which is the case with every friendship in this period by the way. I could stay at multiple places. I had chats with those friends and we just all came closer.
I felt carried by more friends than I realised I had. It made me thankful.
I spoke with my family, brothers and sister. And overall they just had the opinion that I must do what made me happy. And if that was quitting work, selling my chalet and leave the country for a while. Than that was oke. They just wanted me to be happy. And truth to be told, I was getting slowly more and more unhappy with my current situation.
But I was supported by them.
When I told my landowner I wanted to sell my place, I feared that it would take time, even months before I would get a good price. And the additional work I had to do still. But this landowner wanted to buy my chalet. Not for the upper limit price, but enough for me to bite. Because he told me that he would take it for a certain price AS IS. No additional things and costs. Even when I asked if he could pa a certain amount in advance, which is unusual in these cases, he just agreed.
Grattitude I felt again.
Then the managing couple told me that they wanted me stop working at the very beginning of march. The first moment I thought:”What the fuck happens now?” But after a moment I realised that it would give me the complete month of march to do a lot of things I needed time for. Taxes, dentist, friends, shifting through my things again.
What a gift again! Thanks!
And the black cat named Chupi. Who came sometimes running in the dark to me, when she heared my car parking. I lifted her up and carried her to the frontdoor. I am again incredible thankful for her presence.
I am blessed.
And so many small things happened that I might have forgotten now when I write this down. But the whole time I felt like the above mentioned Tarot card. Which I got from another collegue who had the perfect visualision for how I felt. And do I need to say that in that company work a lot of people who live in my heart, who I love. Yes, sometimes it needs to be said. Guys, I love you all, each in his or her own way.
Oooh, aaah, I almost forgot the “Passport Affair” (Previous blog item). Which swept the ground beneath my feet. All this flow, leading to something, and now a stupid mistake of me, where I was so focused on just NOT to let THAT happen. And then it DID happen. That was a moment of serious panic and doubt. But wonder of wonder. THAT was a true miracle to me, a sign that I am carried.
But back to the Tarot card:
And that is how I felt…left everything behind, because the glass bridge would not hold with all that stuff. I just had to walk over this almost unseen transparent bridge, trusting that I would be carried by something far greater and more intelligent (Well, that is not that hard to do ;-)) as I am.
I feel carried, blessed and I am grateful for that.